- Annie Clark (via laurenraelle)
- m.l. (via unmaiden)
Let me first just say that I have learned how powerful the words “I am” are; therefore, they will be avoided at all cost in relation to negativity in my past. Also, I realize how unorganized and lengthy this is lol. Updates are in bold, and void statements will be marked through.
So, I am a perfectionist. This has not changed, but I have gained a good bit of control over it. I adore cars (mostly American Muscle). I have extremely long, skinny toes/feet. I am a coffee addict (+++) with a newly found love for yerba maté.
I am insecure (working on this). I love mud, but I hate the rain..no, no, I hate being in the rain. When I was little, I was banned from hard candies because I choked on them all. I’ve only been grounded once. I graduated 5th in my class…of 28. I cannot keep a nice phone to save my life. My true friends are mainly guys Irrelevant statement. I fell for the barista at the local coffee shop — I made the first move, married him, and am now getting a divorce. I love writing and receiving letters — they are so much more personal than electronic communication. My mother is a photographer and my best friend. She wants to get tattoos together. My step dad’s family is from Hungary. I give my all to those who find their way into my heart. I have grown apart from too many of my “best” friends. My first prom date died in a car crash the next year. Miss you, Bj. I am deathly afraid of someone close to me dying; but I, myself, do not fear death — if it is not painful. I dated my next door neighbor in middle school. I love war movies. I like fishing. I am an artist (charcoal/ink/graphite). I am I struggle with bulimia. I grew up riding horses, something that I dearly miss. Pitt bulls are my favorite dog. My wardrobe consists mostly of black clothing (def. hasn’t changed). I am nearly blind — in both eyes — though one has recently improved. I am deathly afraid of spiders. I do drink (beer/wine) I do smoke (not cigarettes.) I rarely watch tv. I love sushi. Bananas and mangoes are my favorite fruits. I dream of flying (not in a long time). I am an Aquarius and very romantic. I am a bit kinky — a fact that I am not sure about at this moment due to physical and emotional ailments over the course of the past two years. I am naive I no longer believe this statement to be entirely true lol. I can play a small bit of guitar. I take my car for a drive and blast music when I’m feeling down. It takes ALOT to make me mad. I have been in far too many car wrecks — totalled two cars. My dad taught me how to paint a car, so I painted flames on his refrigerator lol. I know how to airbrush — not skilled. My ears are gauged (0). I have a lip ring and a nose ring. I only play car racing video games. I was, essentially, raised in a barn. A pitt bull named Athena taught me how to walk. I considered majoring in cosmetology. My great grandmother is still alive (87 years old). I can twist my tongue upside down. I want a hookah. I am obsessed with snack foods — trail mix, pretzels, grapes, pop corn, etc. I love to read. I want to visit the country of Bhutan. All I need is trust and affection in a relationship I am honestly not sure what I need in a relationship. I can be a very sexual person (only time will tell). I wear my emotions on my face. I am a wonderful listener; but, when it comes to talking about my problems, I feel like a nuisance. I hate mayonnaise. I love the outdoors. My grandmother (mom’s mom) cannot role her tongue — she also has about 100 cats (the true cat lady) My father is married to a beautiful woman from Indonesia — she could hardly speak English when they met, so he would bring her flowers every day. I believe in soul mates, and I have found who I believe to be mine. I do not think Marilyn Monroe was a classy individual — she was the president of the United States of America’s fuck buddy. I am not too sure how Marilyn Monroe found her way into this; but I will just say that she was an expressive individual living her life, and I am no one to judge what she or anyone else did. I am confused on my religious standing — I do believe in the one true Creator. My parents are divorced. I am far from the “grown up” I told myself I’d be What does that even mean? I love having a job. The gym is my escape from the world Confidence enhancer. I will soon be the instructor of a small yoga class at the local crossfit gym, which I try to go to at least 3 to 5 times a week. I am not a huge fan of dresses. I love cowboy boots and Vans. I am a red-head dirty blonde, which is my natural color (though I miss my red hair). I love standing out Yes and no… making people feel uncomfortable is quite entertaining I think what I meant by this was that being unique catches people’s attention (especially in central Mississippi); and that being a sort of culture shock for those who have not experienced and do not accept it is an enlightening and humorous experience. I love cats (exotic and domestic.) I sleep with a teddy bear. I want to travel the world and find where my soul is meant to be. I LOVE old rock — Lynyrd Skynyrd, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, Jimi Hendrix, etc. I am open-minded. I am from a tiny, southern (and tremendously close-minded) town. People make me sick. Others make my world go round. I am math illiterate (not entirely). English is my best subject (probably because I see it as a form of art it is art) My greatest fear is being alone and fat not taking chances — the thought that, by conforming my life to what is expected in society, I will miss the immense capacity for experience my life holds. I believe the world we live in is consumed by the devil and his work — a sort of HELL if you will. Statements such as the previous one show me just how far I have come over the past few years. How much I have changed. I am not a Christian. I believe in energy, intuition, and the power of thought. The only happiness in my life is my ability to make others happy This is a major change in who I have become: the past two years have shown me that I am the only sure thing in my life; and that, if I want something, it is up to me to make it happen. Happiness is the goal in life. Through happiness we are able to thrive. Often times it takes heartache, change, and discomfort to get back on the track to happiness; but what is the point in choosing to remain miserable in this existence? If you have the ability to move mountains, fucking do it. This is your LIFE; and, if I have learned anything, it is to make decisions based on what you feel — based on what your essence tells you — and not what the world expects of you. The only education I truly need to live is out in the world — the education I am forced to take is simply for financial funds I am not forced to go to school (though my mother would be disappointed if I quit now after 4 years); and, even though I do agree that one can learn tremendously from simply living, I am thankful for what I have and will learn in college. I’ve dated someone in another country (almost moved there to be with him) And this someone is my alma gamela. I try to eat and use organic products as much as possible. I live and go to school on the beach.
- Confucius (via psych-facts)